This is what the Lord has done to help me...

     This is what God has done for me… About 5 years into the relationship, I got pregnant. When I gave word to my fiancé, he was not happy. He wanted me to have an abortion and made me call clinics to set up appointments. My heart was trouble for I did not want to go through that. But went praying for a way out. Before and during this time of trouble, I read my bible to look for words of guidance to help me. And I took that scripture when Jesus said, “Verily, verily I say unto you, he that believeth on me, the works that I do, the same shall he do, and greater works then these shall he do, because I go unto my father. And whatsoever ye ask in my name, that will I do, that the father might be glorified by the son. If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it.”

     We arrived at one clinic and death was the feeling I felt there. The women there had no smiles, their men the same way. The door opened and a young woman walked out with a lollipop in her mouth as what they gave them when it was all over. I was sore distressed. My name was called and they told me to go fill up the cup. I prayed in that bathroom for the Lord to help me. I was asked to go to a room where they check to see how old the babe is. I lay down on the doctor’s bench or shall I say bench of death. The lady talking with me put this jell on my belly and used ultrasound to search for the babe. As she moved the insturment around she kept making a funny face like she couldn’t find it. She found the “fetus” (as what they call them) eventually and said, you need to come back in the 7th week cause it is the size of a grain of rice about 5 weeks old.

     My fiancé, wanted me still to come back in the 7th week. A few days after that mess, I went for an appointment to seek prenatal care. While there I saw all the little babies and how happy their mother’s and father’s were. I felt love and happiness there. My name was called and I went in for an ultrasound. The result was this, I was 11 weeks pregnant and I saw the babe’s heart beating. I wanted to cry. I got my two pictures and headed back home. That grain of rice was actually 3 inches long.

     We went again to the death clinic on the date given us but my mind was not there but on the picture of the child. This time, I remember seeing only me and him there and the receptionist at the window, no one else. As if it was a holiday. She took us in a room to look at the procedure of what I would go through. I was not paying attention. After that, she took me by myself and she knew I didn’t want to be there and told my fiancé, the technicians are not in today and you would have to come back another day. He was furious when we left. Maybe the receptionist was an angel.

     There was one more time to go back. This time, I was not going. I prayed, Lord I’m ready. I was given advice to call some shelters and called one by one and nothing. Till I called a place, which said they were out of beds, but I said, someone wants me to have an abortion. Then she said, oh no, we will find a bed for you. She gave me the address and I took 3 days worth of clothes for my journey and left a letter with the extra picture of the babe that I got from the hospital.

     Once I reached my destination, I knocked on the door and was greeted to come in. I had sat down and looked with my teary eyes to the left and saw bibles and literature. This was a “Christ” based shelter. The lady in charge was not there yet but I waited patiently for her arrival. When she got there, we sat and discussed the situation. Dinner was being prepared and she told me to make myself at home. There were other women there, with children and without. They were very nice to me and some had even more sad stories than mine.

     During my stay there, I began to notice something was wrong. Not with the women who were homeless and had problems, but with the speakers. It first started, when a man with two women, one his wife, came to the house where we were and had us sit down to watch a program. One about teenagers coming to know Jesus and one about John Hagee and his method on how the kingdom of God was going to come. I watched and was into it but had my doubts. After the program was over, they started talking about Benny Hinn. How he touches people in the name of Jesus and are cured of their problems. And how they too did the same thing and had to remind people to give praise to God and not them. I’ve always had a bad feeling about that guy and others like him.

     I proceeded to ask for prayer from them, I suppose cause I was still upset. But the way they did it was odd. The old man got behind me, his wife in front of me and the other lady on my left standing next to the wife. Then she started speaking some strange murmuring. The wife put her hand on my head. I felt a strong presence of something in the spirit and she tried to push me backwards but I did not go back into the man’s arms like the deceivers on T.V. show. For in my mind I was saying this isn’t happening and I played it off as if something happened in their eyes. The woman on the left said I was going to meet an evangelist (I never did). Then the man brought me to the couch and said, She’ll be out for a while. I stayed seated and once they left, I went to the bathroom and prayed.

     The following Sunday, a woman came to pick some of us up so we could attend her church. When we got to the church, I found out that she was the wife of the preacher there. The first event that took place was music being played. Nice perky music that would get anyone going in the morning. I even sang and clapped my hands. When it was time for prayer, I felt this strong presence like the first time and it stayed with me for a while. It was warm and comforting at first and I wasn’t sure if it was true. The members of the church were saying come Jesus, come. It was time for the preacher to preach. When he finished, more praying. Again, something was wrong. The preacher starting uttering some strange speech, and so did his wife. That warm comforting presence tried to come upon me again but could not. There was a bench where a woman started wailing in tears, the preacher started crying too and fell down on his knees. Then, I was reminded, that Satan himself is changed into the fashion of an angel of light. When it was time to leave, the preachers wife came up to me and said, How do you like our Pentecostal church? I remember her siting behind me on another isle, so she must have targeted me cause I was singing more than the others who were with me.

     On another day, in the morning time, more speakers came, this time it was two women. I had a strange feeling about them too. As if they were hiding something. But I sat down to listen to their story. One of the women was the Director of the shelter. She proceeded to talk about a story and after it was done, she started crying. All I wanted was someone to pray with me so I asked them to pray with me. I was sitting down this time. The same thing happened liked when the three older people came. Her and the other woman started babbling. I played along again. After that I knew they were not from God.

     Another time, in the night, while resting on my bunk and thinking of the mess I was in, one of the homeless women told me to come downstairs with her to hear this lady speak. I agreed to go down. When I got there this woman was talking to some younger ladies in their teens. Then she proceeded to talk to the older women there, the ones who watched over us in the night. One of the women had problems with her back and asked the woman to pray for her to get healed. She did but the way she did it was odd. She stood up, got some olive oil, put it in the palm of her hand, and rubbed it on the lady’s forehead. Then started to rub the lady’s back and saying Jesus, Jesus. When that was done, she saw me, I was still upset about my situation and was crying. She sat down next to me and told me that I was artistic, and was going to write a novel some day. I told her that I wanted to get married to my fiancé. Then the bomb dropped. She said, He’s not for you. I started crying a bit more. It was time for us all to go to bed but I went to the bathroom to pray. I asked God to see me through all this and to help me with my problem. I did not accept what that woman told me. For that night I recalled her saying to some other woman that she had left her husband.

     Now, I remember in scripture when Jesus said, "Not all they that say unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter in to the kingdom of heaven: but he that doth my fathers will which is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not in thy name Prophesied? And in thy name have cast out devils? And in thy name have done many miracles? And then will I knowledge unto them that I never knew them. Depart from me, ye workers of iniquity."

     I was getting tired of these speakers and wanted to leave. So I packed my things the next day and left.

     When I got back home, things started getting better. We moved to a new place and finally got married. Before the baby came, I prayed the Lord for our baby to be born strong and healthy and gave him to the Lord. When time was come to deliver, I prayed for it to be quick for I did not want to go through a lot of pain as a lot of women go through and the doctor told me in amazement out of 9 women that day mine was the fastest. And our babe was born strong and healthy.

     I have prayed too, for an unhardening of my husbands heart toward God and Christ and I’m now beginning to see this when we talk about certain things. We get along very well now and I believe he is for me. If he wasn’t for me, then why did things work out the way they did?

     Thank you God my father, thank you Jesus, son of the most hight God for helping me through all that mess and for being there for me each day. And teaching me patience so I can get along with others.

     Also, this was shared with me while I was at the place where I stayed by a woman more worthy than the rest: "The thief comes not but for to steal, kill and destroy. I am come that they might have life, and have it more abundantly."

     (At the end of my testimony place this): “The spirit speaketh evidently that in the latter times some shall depart from the faith, and shall give heed unto spirits of error, and devilish doctrine of them which speak false through hypocrisy, and have their consciences marked with an hot iron, forbidding to marry, and commanding to abstain from meats which God hath created to be received with giving thanks, of them which believe and know the truth. For all the creatures of God are good and nothing to be refused, if it be received with thanksgiving. For it is sanctified by the word of God and prayer. If thou shalt put the brethren in remembrance of these things, thou shalt be a good minister of Jesu Christ, which hast been nourished up in the words of the faith and good doctrine which doctrine thou hast continually followed. But cast away unghostly and old wives fables.” Found in 1 Timothy 4

     “If the truth of Christ be in me, this rejoicing shall not be taken from me in the regions of Achaia. Wherefore? Because I love you not? God knoweth. Nevertheless what I do, that will I do, to cut away occasion from them which desire occasion, that they might be found like unto us in that wherein they rejoice. For these false apostles are deceitful workers, and fashion them selves like unto the Apostles of Christ. And no marvel, for Satan himself is changed into the fashion of an angel of light. Therefore it is no great thing, though his ministers fashion them selves as though they were the ministers of righteousness: whose end shall be according to their deeds.” Found in 2 Corinthians 11

     “Ye beloved, believe not every spirit but prove the spirits whether they are of God or not, for many false Prophets are gone out into the world. Hereby shall ye know the spirit of God. Every spirit that confesseth that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh, is of God. And every spirit which confesseth not that Jesus Christ is come in the flesh, is not of God. And this is that spirit of Antichrist, of whom ye have heard, how that he should come: and even now already is he in the world.

     Little children, ye are of God and have overcome them: for greater is he that is in you, then he that is in the world. They are of the world, and therefore speak they of the world, and the world heareth them. We are of God. He that knoweth God, heareth us: he that is not of God, heareth us not. Hereby know we the spirit of verity, and the spirit of error.

     Beloved, let us love one another: for love cometh of God. And every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God. He that loveth not, knoweth not God: for God is love. In this appeared the love of God to us ward, because that God sent his only begotten son into the world, that we might live through him. Herein is love, not that we loved God but that he loved us, and sent his son to make agreement for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another. No man hath seen God at any time. If we love one another, God dwelleth in us, and his love is perfect in us. Hereby know we: that we dwell in him, and he in us: because he hath given us of his spirit. And we have seen and do testify that the father sent the son, which is the saviour of the world. Whosoever confesseth that Jesus is the son of God, in him dwelleth God, and he in God. And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us.

     God is love, and he that dwelleth in love, dwelleth in God, and God in him. Herein is the love perfect in us, that we should have trust in the day of judgment: For as he is, even so are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love casteth out all fear, for fear hath painfulness. He that feareth, is not perfect in love.

     We love him, for he loved us first. If a man say, I love God, and yet hate his brother he is a liar. For how can he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, love God whom he hath not seen? And this commandment have we of him: that he which loveth God, should love his brother also.” John 4

     “Judge not, that ye be not judged. For as ye judge so shall ye be judged. And with what measure ye *mete, with the same shall it be measured to you again. Why seest thou a *mote in thy brothers eye, and perceivest not the beam in thine own eye? Or why sayest thou to thy brother: suffer me to pluck out the mote out of thine eye, and behold a beam is in thine own eye. Hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye, and then shalt thou see clearly to pluck out the mote out of thy brothers eye. *mete: what ever is used to measure, *mote: a speck

     Give not that which is holy, to dogs, neither cast ye your pearls before swine, lest they tread them under their feet, and the other turn again and all to rent you.

     Ask and it shall be given you. Seek and ye shall find. Knock and it shall be opened unto you. For whosoever asketh receiveth, and he that seeketh findeth and to him that knocketh it shall be opened. Is there any man among you which if his son asked him bread, would offer him a stone? Or if he asked fish, would he proffer him a serpent? If ye then which are evil, can give to your children good gifts how much more shall your father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?

     Therefore whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, even so do ye to them. This is the law and the Prophets.

     Enter in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way that leadeth to destruction: and many there be which go in thereat. But strait is the gate, and narrow is the way which leadeth unto life: and few there be that find it. Beware of false Prophets, which come to you in sheeps clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves. Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns? Or figs of briars? Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit. But a corrupt tree, bringeth forth evil fruit. A good tree cannot bring forth bad fruite: nor yet a bad tree can bring forth good fruit. Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit, shall be hewn down, and cast into the fire. Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.

     Not all they that say unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter in to the kingdom of heaven: but he that doth my fathers will which is in heaven. Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not in thy name Prophesied? And in thy name have cast out devils? And in thy name have done many miracles? And then will I knowledge unto them that I never knew them. Depart from me, ye workers of iniquity.

     Whosoever heareth of me these sayings and doeth the same, I will liken him unto a wise man which built his house on a rock: and abundance of rain descended, and the floods came and the winds blew and beat upon that same house, and it fell not, because it was grounded on the rock. And whosoever heareth of me these sayings and doth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man which built his house upon the land: and abundance of rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew and beat upon that house, and it fell, and great was the fall of it. And it came to pass, that when Jesus had ended these sayings, the people were *astonied at his doctrine. For he taught them as one having power, and not as the scribes. *astonied: astounded, astonished.” Found in Matthew 7

     

     

     

     

     Then said Mary unto the angel: How shall this be, seeing I know not a man? And the angel answered and said unto her: The holy ghost shall come upon thee, and the power of the highest shall overshadow thee. Therefore also that holy thing which shall be born, shall be called the son of God. And behold thy cousin Elizabeth she hath also conceived a son in her age. And this is her sixth month, though she be called barren: for with God can nothing be unpossible. And Mary said: behold the hand maiden of the Lord, be it unto me even as thou hast said. And the angel departed from her. And Mary arose in those days, and went into the mountains with haste, into a city of *Jurie and entered into the house of Zachary, and saluted Elizabeth. And it fortuned, as Elizabeth heard the salutation of Mary, the babe sprang in her belly. And Elizabeth was filled with the holy ghost, and cried with a loud voice, and said: Blessed art thou among the women and blessed is the fruit of thy womb. And whence happeneth this to me that the mother of my Lord should come to me? For lo, as soon as the voice of thy salutation sounded in mine ears, the babe sprang in my belly for joy. And blessed art thou that believedst: for those things shall be performed which were told thee from the Lord. And Mary said: My soul magnifieth the Lord. And my spirit rejoiceth in God my saviour. For he hath looked on the poor degree of his handmaiden. Behold now from henceforth shall all generations call me blessed. For he that is mighty hath done to me great things, and holy is his name. And his mercy is on them that fear him throughout all generations. He showeth strength with his arm, he scattereth them that are proud in the imagination of their hearts. He putteth down the mighty from their seats, and exalteth them of low degree. He filleth the hungry with good things: and sendeth away the rich empty. He remembereth mercy: and helpeth his servant Israel. Even as he promised to our fathers, Abraham and to his seed for ever. And Mary abode with her about a three months, and returned again to her own house. Elizabeths time was come that she should be delivered, and she brought forth a son. And her neighbours and her cousins heard tell how the Lord had showed great mercy upon her, and they rejoiced with her.

      For my reins are thine, thou hast covered me in my mothers womb. I will give thanks unto thee, for I am wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works, and that my soul knoweth right well. My bones are not hid from thee, though I be made secretly, and fashioned beneath the earth.

      I myself also am a mortal man, like as all other, and am come of the earthly generation of him that was first made, and in my mothers womb was I fashioned to be flesh: In the time of ten months was I brought together in blood through the seed of man, and the commodious appetite of sleep. When I was born, I received like air as other men, and fell upon the earth, ( which is my nature ) crying and weeping at first, as all other do. I was wrapped in swaddling clothes, and brought up with great cares. For there is no king that hath had any other beginning of birth. All men have one entrance unto life, and one going out in like manner.

      And they departed from Bethel, and when he was but a field breadth from Ephrath, Rahel began to travail. And in travailing she was in peril. And as she was in pains of her labor, the midwife said unto her: fear not, for thou shalt have this son also. Then as her soul was departing, that she must die: she called his name Ben Oni. But his father called him Ben Jamin. and thus died Rahel and was buried in the way to Ephrath which now is called Bethlehem. And Jacob set up a pillar upon her grave, which is called Rahels grave pillar unto this day.

     Theron, I remember too...when I was sitting down at the bench of death, the lady asked me what I wanted to be, like my profession. I had told her I wanted to be an architect...she told me if I had the babe I wouldn't be able to do that. This came to remembrance...

      "Moreover, this was not enough for them that they erred in the knowledge of God: but where as they lived in the great wars of ignorance, those many and great plagues called they peace. For either they slew their own children, and offered them, or did sacrifice in the night season, or else held unreasonable watches: so that they kept neither life ner marriage clean: but either one slew another to death maliciously or else grieved his neighbor with *advoutry. And thus were all things mixed together: blood manslaughter, theft, dissimulation, corruption, unfaithfulness, sedition, perjury, disquietness of good men, unthankfulness, defiling of souls, changing of birth, unsteadfastness of marriage, misorder of *advoutry and uncleanness. And why? the honoring of abominable images is the cause, the beginning and end of all evil. For they worship Idols, either they are mad when they be merry, or prophesy lies, or live ungodly, or else lightly foreswear themselves. For in so much as their trust is in the Idols ( which have neither souls ner understanding ) though they swear falsely, yet they think it shall not hurt them."

     architect was added unto the Word...in the NIV:

     [9] By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise.

     [10] For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God.

     Real Word:

      By faith he removed into the land that was promised him, as into a strange country, and dwelt in tabernacles: and so did Isaac and Jacob heirs with him of the same promise. For he looked for a city having a foundation whose builder and maker is God. -----

      There he made them an ordinance and a law, and there he tempted them and said: If ye will hearken unto the voice of the Lord your God, and will do that which is right in his sight and will give an ear unto his commandments, and keep all his ordinances: then will I put none of these diseases upon thee which I brought upon the Egyptians, for I am the Lord thy surgeon.

     God is Great!!!!

     Roberta....

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